Monday, April 19, 2010

Overwhelmed and Consumed!

Wow! I still am trying "to get over" the overwhelming feelings of meeting my bio dad and family. I have missed out on so much that now I want all I can get. I know that probably seems crazy, but . . . that is just how I feel. Talking, laughing, noticing similarities in physical looks and character traits, learning, texting, calling, seeing old pictures, talk of future plans, and spending time together have all but consumed my thoughts and time. To see the interaction between my kids and their "new" family warms my heart. Some people have said, "Aren't you rushing into this?" and I think to myself . . . "No, there's no better time than the present . . . we have to make up for "lost" time". However, one may look at it doesn't really matter . . . because until you are the one going through this whole process - you'll never know how it feels. One thing I do KNOW for sure is that all things happen for a reason/purpose and I am thrilled that this has happened to me (us) at this time.

2 comments:

The Beard Bunch said...

Tammy, I am sure you get much feedback from people telling you what you should or shouldn't do or feel, but I think you know that this is YOUR choice. I am happy for you, but I was happy for you last year too and the year before that..... Enjoy the here and now; it is what God gave you today!

a joyful nusiance said...

I am happy that you have this time. Enjoy it. Who cares what everyone else thinks!!